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Sunday, January 24, 2010
"Being lonely isn't the worst feeling; it's being forgotten by someone you can't forget."
"Being lonely isn't the worst feeling; it's being forgotten by someone you can't forget."
A friend of mine posted that today and it really spoke to me. Even though I'm SURE that's not the case, it's how I feel right about now. So so so so so so tired of not being a priority. I realize I'm just "in my feelings" right now, but it's how I feel. Tomorrow or later I'll feel better I'm sure, I'm just a lil' hurt by a recent situation. I'm keeping positive and giving him the benefit of the doubt because that would be a lot to go through at once for anybody. I have faith in what I heard from God and I'm going to continue on with it. Speaking on the positive into the situation.
Random things about me...
I've been thinking a lot lately about myself... yeah I said it, guess to some that makes me selfish but I don't agree. I think self evaluation is necessary. Through some of my thinking I've come to realize that I'm kinda random and quirky but it's all part of my charm. I have friends whom have known me for years who are constantly saying "Oh I never knew that about you." I guess I'm not big on self disclosure, or they just weren't paying attention.
So here I'll make it simple...random things about me:
A sinner saved by God's grace... I am NEW.
I tend to procrastinate and then end up spreading myself entirely too thin.
I may very well be a workaholic, but it could just seem that way because of my procrastination issue.
I am truly one of the nicest people you were probably ever meet, even if I sometimes have a "leave me alone" look on my face.
I'm a giver, if I have it to give I give. Money, time, effort, gifts, whatever I give to give. To me it's just about putting a smile on someone's face.
As much as I've tried to fight it on and off over the years, I've been in love with the same man for almost 5 yrs. Now that I'm ready to do something about it.... well I'll only speak the positive into the situation and just say I'm sure he's coming around, just hasn't YET. ;)
Talking about the above ALWAYS makes me emotional, even though I'm not a woman who cries or shows much emotion.
I absolutely adore movies from the 1930's and 1940's. Everyone is so beautiful, glamorous, polite and well mannered. People dressed for dinner, men courted women, the art deco styling was just amazing and the world just seems so much simpler then, but in a much better way. - This random fact in and of itself should tell you ALOT about me.
Pedicures, Spa Days and anything girlie make me feel pretty.
A clean house makes me happy.
I take all of the toppings off of my pizza and eat them separately.
I enjoy doing and folding laundry. I would love to have a laundry mat in my house so I could get all of my laundry done at once instead of washing load by load. I get sidetracked waiting and end up with piles of clean clothes.
Perfume is like clothing to me, if I'm leaving the house it's on.
I'm the oldest child, the youngest child and an only child but I have siblings. Don't spend too much time trying to figure that out. If you really know me, you know how this is possible.
I "wake up" at night, just as the bulk of the world is going to bed, I get my second wind and I'm ready to be creative in some type of way.
I absolutely love and adore my family, with all of the quirks and craziness, even though I don't see them often, I do.
It sometimes bothers me that we're not very affectionate...
I'm an excellent cook, even if I don't do it much any more.
I enjoy entertaining and hosting gatherings, dinner parties, bbqs, etc...
I was in an almost 2 yr relationship with a man who doesn't exist. (don't ask.. it has to do with the being in love with someone else, can we say transference of feelings???)
The above inspired me to write my book.
I don't write as much as I should, it should have been in stores by now.
I have to finish it because I have a goal to get on Oprah before she retires.
I have access and interest from publishing houses and literary agents, I've just procrastinated because I'm not sure how one chapter ends.
I'm going through a major weight loss period and am discovering new things about my body every day. Well hello collar bone, who knew I had one of those? lol
I tend to carry on conversations with myself and I'm ok with that.
I consider adoption a lot, even though at this time in my life I would be a single parent.
I tend to procrastinate and then end up spreading myself entirely too thin.
I may very well be a workaholic, but it could just seem that way because of my procrastination issue.
I am truly one of the nicest people you were probably ever meet, even if I sometimes have a "leave me alone" look on my face.
I'm a giver, if I have it to give I give. Money, time, effort, gifts, whatever I give to give. To me it's just about putting a smile on someone's face.
As much as I've tried to fight it on and off over the years, I've been in love with the same man for almost 5 yrs. Now that I'm ready to do something about it.... well I'll only speak the positive into the situation and just say I'm sure he's coming around, just hasn't YET. ;)
Talking about the above ALWAYS makes me emotional, even though I'm not a woman who cries or shows much emotion.
I absolutely adore movies from the 1930's and 1940's. Everyone is so beautiful, glamorous, polite and well mannered. People dressed for dinner, men courted women, the art deco styling was just amazing and the world just seems so much simpler then, but in a much better way. - This random fact in and of itself should tell you ALOT about me.
Pedicures, Spa Days and anything girlie make me feel pretty.
A clean house makes me happy.
I take all of the toppings off of my pizza and eat them separately.
I enjoy doing and folding laundry. I would love to have a laundry mat in my house so I could get all of my laundry done at once instead of washing load by load. I get sidetracked waiting and end up with piles of clean clothes.
Perfume is like clothing to me, if I'm leaving the house it's on.
I'm the oldest child, the youngest child and an only child but I have siblings. Don't spend too much time trying to figure that out. If you really know me, you know how this is possible.
I "wake up" at night, just as the bulk of the world is going to bed, I get my second wind and I'm ready to be creative in some type of way.
I absolutely love and adore my family, with all of the quirks and craziness, even though I don't see them often, I do.
It sometimes bothers me that we're not very affectionate...
I'm an excellent cook, even if I don't do it much any more.
I enjoy entertaining and hosting gatherings, dinner parties, bbqs, etc...
I was in an almost 2 yr relationship with a man who doesn't exist. (don't ask.. it has to do with the being in love with someone else, can we say transference of feelings???)
The above inspired me to write my book.
I don't write as much as I should, it should have been in stores by now.
I have to finish it because I have a goal to get on Oprah before she retires.
I have access and interest from publishing houses and literary agents, I've just procrastinated because I'm not sure how one chapter ends.
I'm going through a major weight loss period and am discovering new things about my body every day. Well hello collar bone, who knew I had one of those? lol
I tend to carry on conversations with myself and I'm ok with that.
I consider adoption a lot, even though at this time in my life I would be a single parent.
When I get sleepy I tend to ramble on and crack corny jokes.
When I'm emotional I tend to write....
Guess that's what brought me here tonight...feeling the need to share something with someone; to connect. Even if it's just with myself as pixels on a screen. I didn't really realize I was feeling this way until I started to write. Writing is so cathartic, this is EXACTLY why I do it.